Today started out wonderfully. Actually, my entire winter break has been extremely awesome. But of course, that can only last for so long in my life. I miss my little brother, even though I know he’s having the time of his life on tour, doing what he loves. I miss my best friend, even though I know she’s having a fun with her friends in Georgia & such. My dad hates me every other fucking day even when I don’t do shit because something else has pissed him off, I’m like a human punching bag for him. My parents are constantly trying to drag me into their divorce drama, trying to get me to pick sides. It’s like every time I feel like I have finally caught a break, everything gets completely fucked & stresses me out beyond belief.
I hate not having a job. I don’t really hate school, but I could definitely think of a couple of different ways I’d rather spend my time. I can’t wait until it’s all over & I can finally rely on myself once again. I just want to feel like a twenty year old, independent, grown ass woman, because feeling like a low life is really dragging me down.
Two & a half hours left of one of the most annoying years of my life… I wish I could say that I see positive changes coming my way in 2012, but right now, I just don’t see it. I hope that I’m completely wrong.